A note from Jessica's Husband, Clint:
I would like to take this time to explain exactly what happened when Jessica died. There has been much confusion. Some people think God cruel for taking her the way He did. Others have told me that they are angry at God for me. How can that be? I want to honor God and my Wife by telling you of her choices. Jessica always struggled with making decisions but once she made a choice, she never turned back. It was the same in this case.
In August of 2010, Jessica began to suspect she was pregnant; she also noticed she had a sore throat. She went to the doctor because the pain did not go away. Because specialist referrals take so long, she was unable to get a diagnosis for the next two months. Sometimes it takes two to three weeks just to see an ENT or get lab results back. Around mid November Jessica began having trouble breathing and swallowing. We went to the ER on November 21st. All the doctors said she had goiter (which does not grow inward), so they thought Jessica was just imagining not being able to breathe. On the 22nd, Jessica's trachea closed and they had to force a breathing and feeding tube down. They did a CAT scan that same day and found an unusual cancer wrapped around her throat area.
The OB-GYN's came to see Jessica first and counseled her to have an abortion. Jessica refused immediately. Then the OB-GYNs, Oncologist, and Radiologist all encouraged her to receive treatments, but these treatments would either kill the baby or "not give [the baby] much of a life." I could see the fear in my Wife's eyes as she made the hardest decision of her life. Once again, she rejected the treatments in order to protect her baby. The doctors were at a loss. They told her she had until Thanksgiving to live and she would never make it to the point where the baby would be viable for life outside the womb. Still, Jessica refused the treatments out of concern they would harm the child.
Jessica's parents and I immediately argued with the hospital about food. They wanted to give her a corn-based solution composed of 30-40% corn syrup. As any nutritionist and doctor should know, sugar feeds cancer. After much debate, we began Jessica on a diet of raw, organic vegetable juices, teas, and various supplements. The cancer growth stagnated almost immediately. For about two months, the cancer stayed about the same size. Jessica faced numerous trials and hospital infections during this time. In late January, the doctors tested a leaking bulge on Jessica's neck. The bulge tested positive for strep, but Jessica showed no symptoms of being sick or having an actual infection elsewhere. The strep seemed isolated in the bulge. The doctors began giving her antibiotics to get rid of the strep. Two days later, the cancer mushroomed. For the next week it grew inexplicably fast. On the night of February 5th, Jessica fell asleep with a terrible headache and nausea. She did not wake up. The hospital declared her "brain deaf." I gave them the go ahead to deliver the baby. Jessica had made it to the viability point.
On Monday the 8th, we ran an apnea test to determine whether Jessica was brain dead or not. She was, and we removed her off the ventilator. Jessica did not die in vain. She made choices that she knew were what God wanted. She rejected potentially harmful treatments and literally gave her life for her baby to live. Beyond all hope, she brought the baby to a point that everyone said she would never reach. "Little Jessi" is now a living part of Jessica. Jessica's hope is realized in her and Little Jessi's hope rests in God alone.
God is to be praised, my Friends. He honored Jessica's obedience. What a beautiful picture of what Jesus did for us. Sin is an incurable disease with only one remedy: the judgment of God. Jesus took that judgment for us on the Cross. He gave His life and became sin for us even though He had never sinned and should never have died. We have been given eternal life through what Jesus has done for us. Do not doubt God; do not be angry with Him for me. I am privileged to have had a Wife who was so full of the love of the Father. Rejoice with me, Brothers and Sisters. God has blessed Jessica in taking her to place of perfect peace and no pain. I must be thankful for the time that I had with her rather than ungrateful for all the things we never got to do together. We must give thanks in all things for this is the will of God in Jesus Christ. Grace and Peace to all. Jessica's Husband, Clint.